I know this emptiness inside of me will never really go away. Living under the roof of a strict household does that to you. I know this dark knot inside of me will also never go away. It’s all consuming and painful. It does things that are difficult to understand, let alone feel. The pain will not ever go away. Not even when I am with you. You are sweet, kind, and the most generous person I’ve ever met, but you are just not the one. I need someone to give me that dark, consuming, and dangerous love. I need someone to want to crave being with me. I wanna be someone’s drug. Not just a sweet dessert you get after a meal. I wanna be yours and no one else. I need to feel like I belong. Why can’t I feel that? What is wrong with me?
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