Addiction is hard.
There’s so many different types and forms.
It comes at you without warning sometimes.
Other times you feed it and nurture it and
make it become real.
The thing you’re hooked on feels so good.
Then afterwards you feel like shit trying to
assure yourself that you’re doing the right thing.
That you’ll stop tomorrow.
You wont ever do it again.
But the next day,
you’re at it again.
You take a double dose of the very thing causing your issues.
what do you do if the one thing you cant live without,
is a person?
you cant kill it, you cant go to aa.
You just have to deal with it.
You can try to drink them away,
smoke them out of your life,
you can ignore them till they go away.
but the memory of them will remain.
and going back to those memories is a
drug you’ll never kick.