Dear God,
Let’s Talk,
Let me open my scars to you and invite you to my darkness….perhaps You can shed some light on my pain …… my restlessness…….my emotions.
I breathe in failure,
I walk in doubt,
Sleep in fear…. so where do I go from here…… heck where do I go anywhere.
There is a sense of truth in me ……a sense of reality….. a promise of freedom.
I open my eyes to live another day, thinking that I’m okay, believing that I’m healing….. But I’m NOT!
I don’t know why I voluntarily create my own barriers…my own cage.
Willingly I blind myself from my authentic-self and dip my soul in a pool of hate, a swirling flow of deception.
Someday’s I’m fine
Someday ‘s I’m confused and lost
Someday’s I’m happy….content within.
But most days I’m sad…depressed……lonely.
I lock myself in my bedroom, afraid of going out in the real world.
I’m afraid of testing the waters……afraid of swimming in the ocean …who knows how deep I’ll go….. in Human emotion.
If there is Love in this world… I’ll find it.
If there is beauty in this life … I’ll find it.
If there is a promise of Individuality in me….. I’ll find it.
I’ll find MY light, I’ll find MY truth through You.
So, Today I welcome the pain, I welcome the frustration…. the sadness…ALL of it.
There is a unique beauty in pain, in sadness, and in loss, and that beauty is YOU. I get closer to You, I grow stronger, I get wiser and most importantly I become a better ME than the day before. It is You I adore….. so I look no more for a cure….. because there is no cure…. such is life.
Sincerely, Your servant…..Your believer.
Poetry
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touching. I like: I’m afraid of testing the waters, afraid of swimming in the ocean, who knows how deep i’ll go, in human emotion. keep writing