"Dear Dad,"
Man, I fucking hate you so much. You gave everything away. You have your mf family away. You took your self away. I remember seeing you laying there. Still, so fucking cold. I swear, I thought you was Goin to wake up and say it was a joke. But you fucking didnt.
You still just layed there. I remember not knowing what was going on, but seeing so many fucking people crying. I remember crying because they were crying. But then, the next day and every day after, I never saw you. I thought we did something wrong. I remember waiting at night time, waiting for you to come through that door, drunk or not. Man, I just wanted to see you. Then, I realized almost a year later. I realized that I’d never see you again. I remiember running into my cousins room, where my brother was and yelling at him “our dads dead. You didnt tell me, hes dead. Did you know that.” I remiember the stunned look on my cousins face, and yhe tears in my brothers eyes. I realized I’d never hear your voice again. I was nothing but a fucking kid, I didn’t know. Man, you didn’t care. Otherwise you’d be here. You gave everything up, everything. For what… the high? Man, I don’t even know what I would say to you if I ever saw you again. I don’t know what I would say. Sometime I think, I think about all the dances. For children’s and their dads. And I used to sit there, and just fucking feel nothing. I remiember I’d sit and cry into my bed. Fucking scream under the water when i would take a bath. YOU SHOULD HAVE FUCKING BEEN THERE FOR ME. FOR US. FOR YOUR FUCKING FAMILY. BUT YOU WASNT. You fucking gave up everything. Everything. And you left nothing for us. Nothing but pictures. No letters. Nothing. Why would you leave us like that? You left me fucking stranded. And I don’t know man, I can’t just forgive you. I don’t think I ever will be able too.
I wish I could just call you. Listen to a voicemail. Man, I’d do anything to see you one last time.
Sincerely,
The child you left behind.
(-Justin Thorne)
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