I’m so much different from those I can see. I feel the pain and saddness of those around me.
I feel when there is evil intentions around me, I see and feel when someone is doing wrong or lying.
I see the good in the ones who are viewed differently. I can feel the pain of the ones who don’t want the world to see.
I feel saddness of death even if it’s a stranger to me, my heart aces with an overwhelming feeling I can’t take.
I can see good in the bad, and bad in the good, things others don’t see. I don’t just see but I feel.
I wish I could change the world and make a difference, but when I try to show the world what I see I’m viewed, judged, looked at differently.
How do I make others see and feel the good and bad in others and see the view of the word as I see it.© 24 minutes ago, Elizabeth smith Read more → Like (1) 1
I have failed, not just those who needed me, my babygirl, my family, my friend’s.
I have failed the most important people in my life, I have also failed myself.
They all talk about my strength, the power it carries, if all just knew. Looks can be blinding.
Behind closed doors, my heart is broken and sore. I’m weak. My strength they, think they see isn’t what it appears to be.
I’m at war with myself, fighting a battle nobody else can see. The outside is a happy, strong person that has it all. It’s all a show for the world to see.
The inside is a battlefield of depression, a flood of tears, a past that has defeated me, a silent cry for help that nobody can see or hear.
I have failed not because I wanted to but I choose to let the fear take over what the rest of the world couldn’t see.
I get asked will I ever fall in love again, I surly hope so, as of now I don’t know what will happen.
I get told my heart is cold, and, and I must let go of the past.
My problems are I refuse to settle for less, knowing I deserve more.
No! I don’t think I’m better than you, or the next for that matter.
Call me old fashioned, or a snob, I want something that will last forever, someone that will not only be my soul mate, but my bestfriend.
A lover that will give the appreciation, love that I give out back in return.
I take love very serious, I can’t just fall for anyone.
I want a love that when things get hard, we stick together, not turn against each other.
Someone who knows when to take life serious, when needed.
But I also want us to laugh, and have fun too.
Live each day like its our last.
Someone even tho we grow older with age and grey hair.
We live life as if we are young at heart, stay healthy and free.
I want a love that before we start our journey pp someone and make our relationship all about sex, base it only it that.
I want to know everything about you, inside and out, your, goals, hopes, and dreams. What you like and don’t with all your favorite foods.
I want you to want to know all the something’s bout me too.
I don’t want to rush it, and take the chance of throwing away something special.
I want to know what dating feels like, I want to miss each other when we are away.
I want to look forward to seeing you as you would me.
I want you to always know you would be the only person with my heart.
Never have to question our love for each other, or where we been or who we were with.
We both will know there isn’t a need to argue or worry about causing each other pain. We will trust each other without doubt or questions.
I clearly know what I want, I know my worth! I don’t want just any relationship,
I want my bestfriend, a love, my forever. That may be way to much to ask for. But truth be told my heart is under lock in key, out of order.
So the next time you ask, why won’t I give you a Chance, or do I think I’m better than you, all I know to say is I’m nobody special, but if you wanted me like you say, it’s not impossible to find the key to my heart and unlock it’s way.
I won’t give you the directions, that defeats it’s purpose, actions speak louder than words and so far you haven’t showed no actions let alone proved your actions.
BY : Elizabeth Smith.