I never got to say goodbye! I ask my self everyday why you. I’m so lost and confused here without you here.
life doesn’t make sense without my bestfriend around. I feel so empty like something is missing.
what hurts the most is how you went. A drug overdose wasn’t what you were about, or how you were supposed to go out.
your soul was so pure, your heart was bigger than the world could handle. You simply made a mistake, that lead you to danger.
I knew what you was trying to do, cover the pain that you thought nobody knew, unfortunately it took over.
heroin won, it had more power, you gave a good fight, you fought with all your might.
I get angry at time’s, thinking I could of done something to save you, but deep down I know it’s a lie.
there was nothing I could do but stick by your side and love you, I couldn’t put my recovery in jeopardy.
I feel selfish at times bc I put myself first, it’s apart of my healing, but I know that wouldn’t of been your wish.
I’m not quite sure how I’m making it without you, some day’s are harder than other’s, that’s for sure.
I never envisioned life without you, but here I ‘am living it. the pain feels like a hell I can’t escape from.
Life can’t ever be the same, I miss you more than word’s can explain, at night I scream out your name.
I wish this was all just a dream, or a simple mistake, sadly it’s a reality I have to face, standing at your grave makes it so real.
I want this pain to go away, I beg for it to ease, it never does, it’s not fair, living life without you here.
I need you more now than ive ever needed anyone, but your gone now, there is nothing I can do.
all I have left is our memories, and the empty feeling in my heart you left. I will live to keep your memory alive.
I try to make you proud and live the way you would want me too, That hope that keeps me going is your watching over me.
one day we will see each other again, until that day comes, rest in paradise, my best Friend, my everything, you won’t ever be forgotten as long as I’m alive!!
By: Elizabeth Smith
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