Kindness. The only thing I can actually really describe my self. That one thing though has brought me much pain, from people I barely knew, to people that I cared for. Without it, Who am I? What are my ambitions, dreams, or goals? Do I even have any? Even anger. I wish I could yell and scream the way you did. I wish I can stand my ground without having to be “molded” by someone to become a better me. Do you threaten to leave me because you know I will bend over backwards just so you can stay by my side? Or is it because I’m easly persuaded just at the thought of being broken for the rest of my life cause you left? If I didn’t have kindness would’ve I said something to you at that time? Without it, I don’t know who I am. I just feel nothing but sadness and darkness. I’m not sure who I am, because my younger self used to strive to be the perfect church girl for my parents, but now I try to be the best wife and mother but my question is still unanswered. Who am I? How do i become someone that no one needs to mold? How do i become my own person? How can I make myself happy? Why don’t I care about my self as I do for others? Why don’t I show my self the kindness I’ve been giving everyone else?? Why can’t I just be happy with my self?
Kindness. Why do I give so much, but not recive.
Maybe I should just let it go. Live a life without it. Its sad and depressing, but thats the only answer I can think of. Just let it go. Live for everyone else. Stop asking myself stupid idiotic questions, stop thinking that if you treat people with kindness they’ll do the same. Now in days, people just live for themselves and don’t care about anyone else. So yes, leave kindness, and live for everyone else, do as your told.
No one will notice the difference anyways.
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