I haven’t known what to say lately. I am seeing someone too now. She knows the deal, but you know I don’t do casual. Sometimes I wonder if this is the end for us. I never see you anymore. You don’t seem to want to see me when I do. There is something very alluring about a woman who says “I miss you too” or “I want you too” or “let’s talk about it.” Or any of the other words you can’t say to me. You are the love of my life, but we get nowhere. And it has been a long 4 years trying so hard to prove that you can trust me and that we can love each other safely. I understand your reservations, your boundaries, and your demands. I truly do, baby. But God I am so tired. Tired of crying, tired of trying, tired of being alone all the time, tired of trying to prove to you I can fit into a world I don’t understand. Maybe our relationship is just too broken to return to. Maybe we missed our chance. I have been known to be a little too optimistic in the love arena. Maybe it is the same for us. I don’t want it to be but I don’t want to hold on too long either. I mean if you’re happy with someone else and I am happy with someone else then why are we even trying?
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