Lost childhood.
I don’t know what to do.
I am feeling really blue.
My mother had told me lies
About things that weren’t
True. I am really confused.
I thought I knew her but I
Guess I don’t. I was wrong
About her. Now all the things
She told me were lies. my
Childhood is gone. My childhood
Is a………
Lost Childhood.
The lies she told me.
I don’t understand why she would
Tell me all those lies. It hurts
Me inside because all she
Did tell me all those lies.
I just want to cry because
She went away and never
Said why she had to lie.
So many years went by and
I want to say goodbye to
All those lies. I don’t
Hate her anymore
But I still don’t know
Why she would tell me
So many lies. My heart
Is broken because.
The lies she told me.
The things she said were hurtful.
When I was little
And I got into trouble
She used to say bad things
About my daddy. Now
I am grown up and the
Thing she said about
My daddy weren’t true.
It makes me upset because
All the things she said were
Hurtful. The lies she told
Was so I could be taken away
From my daddy. The Thing
she said were hurtful.
To me she’s been gone for a long time.
My childhood is gone forever.
Because she made up lies.
I was upset with her because
She left without saying goodbye.
I had a dream but it’s not the
Same. I know she loved me.
She told to many lies. I just want
To cry because…..
To me she’s been gone for a long time.
My childhood is lost forever.
My childhood is lost forever.
Because she told so many
Hurtful lies. I used to
Cry myself to sleep.
I know she loved me.
But now my childhood
Is lost forever. It was
Lost when she died.
I don’t want to hurt
Anymore. I want to
Get my childhood back.
But to me…
My childhood is lost forever.
.
I wish she can see me now.
I wish she can see me now.
She died when I was 13.
I had no tears to cry
Because of all the times
She would say my daddy
Didn’t love me. I don’t
Hate her. I used to look
Up to her. Now she is
Gone. I wish she could
See me now.
.
I couldn’t stand him.
I couldn’t stand Him.
He was way to old
To be my daddy.
I never did understand
Why we were taken away.
I don’t have my house.
Because when they died
Everything I knew about
It was gone. He never
Did like me. But I
Couldn’t stand him
Don’t want to hurt anymore
I don’t want to hurt anymore
Because I know the Lord
Is asking me to forgive her.
How do I for give
Someone who told you
Lies about your daddy.
When she died I was taken
Away. My childhood was
Never the same. I miss her
So. But he didn’t want me
Anymore. I don’t want to
Cry anymore. I don’t want
To hurt anymore.
The truth hurts.
I don’t want to hear about it.
It makes me sick. Just thinking
About it. What makes it worse.
The truth makes it worse.
I don’t want to be upset with
Her but she told me lies about
My past. What I couldn’t
Remember but now I know…
The truth hurts.
Why didn’t he love me?
She loved me but when
She died. I was sent
Away. I didn’t have a
Choice I was only 14.
He loved my sister
But he never did
Love us the same.
He didn’t love me
Like he loved “her”
I don’t understand…
Why didn’t he love me?
She would be proud of me.
I know she is gone and
Looking down at me.
I know that if she
Was alive she would
Be proud of me. I am
Now a author. She was
Proud of me when I was
13. And she would be
Proud of me now. Seeing
That I am a young lady
All grown up. I know
She would be proud of me.
I don’t understand why she
Would tell me all those lies.
I don’t know why she would
Tell me all those lies. Knowing
I would be heart broken because
I missed my daddy so. My brother
Hates me because he blames me
For the reason she told all those
Lies. Saying my daddy didn’t
Love me. When the truth is he
Loves me. I don ‘t understand
Why she would tell all those lies.
I have to carry his name
With myself to blame.
I have to carry his name
With myself to blame. I
Was only a child when they
Took me away. I feel so
Ashamed because my brother
Thinks I am the one to blame.
I told him I was sorry but
He never did answer . So
Now I have to carry his
Name with myself to blame.
I am feeling blue.
I am feeling blue.
I am so sad I
Just want to cry.
All the things she
Said that were not
All true. I can’t tell
Her how I feel because
She is with the Lord.
I am feeling blue because
The mom I knew would
Never do this to me.
Now I know that is
Not true. That is why…
I am feeling blue.
I don’t understand why she did this to me.
I don’t understand why she did
This to me. It’s eating at me.
Because I thought she was
Telling me the truth. When I
Found out it was a lies I was
Really hurt because I thought
She loved me. Not for my money
I don’t understand why she would
Do this to me.
Who is my real mother?
I don’t know why
I feel this way.
I know my mom
Loves me but she
Is to far away. There
Is a lady that took
Care of me when I little
But she went away. When
We moved away when I was
14. And there was a couple
That took me in. I feel
Sad inside because I am
So confused. Do I say
Mom? I want to ask…
Who is my real mother?
Back to California
Wishing I was back in
California. Being with my
Old friends and my childhood
Friend. She maybe gone. But
I know she is watching over me.
Back to California just
Jessie and me. Playing
Laughing. Wishing she
Was with me now. Wishing
I was back in California.
She is the only thing I have left.
She is the only thing I have
Left of them. They lied about
What happened to her.
I am not mad at “her” anymore.
I want to tell her how I feel.
But she has gone away.
I don’t know how to tell
Her how I feel. I have to
Say goodbye to her. So she
Can make the lies go away.
Because…. She is the only
Thing I have left.
I can’t cry anymore tears.
When I first found out she lied.
I cried because she hurt me
So bad. Now I know what
She did was wrong. I want
To yell at her and ask her why.
But now I know…
I can’t cry anymore tears.
Sisters forever.
When we were younger we told
Secrets. Now we are old with
Children of our own. We don’t
See each other very much but
To me we are sister’s forever.
I remember.
I remember the times
We had. I remember
The Joy and laughter
We had. When she went
Away she didn’t tell the
Truth. We never thought
She would lie about what
Happened. For all the times
We had all the good times.
I….. remember.
Untruthful lies.
When I was little “she”
Would tell me stories
About my family
Now I know that
None of it is true.
She is up in heaven
Watching over me.
I hate her for all
The untruthful
Lies she told me.
She told me.
Untruthful lies.
Daddy’s songs.
When I was little before
I went to bed we used
To sing a song. Now
I am older and wiser
I still remember him
Singing his song.
Daddy’s song.
Wishing she was here.
Wishing she was here.
To see him grow .wishing
She was here to love me so.
Wishing she was here to
Tell me she loves me.
Wishing she was here.
Where is my daddy?
Daddy, daddy where is
My daddy? He is gone.
Will he come back?
Daddy, daddy where
Is my daddy. He has
Been gone for so long.
Will he come back for me?
Where is my daddy?
My daddy loves me.
My daddy loves me.
But she told me he
Didn’t. I didn’t get
To say goodbye
When he went away.
But now I have found
Him and now I know….
My daddy loves me.
When he didn’t come home.
I wait by the window.
But he didn’t come
Home. I got into bed
Like we used to. But
He didn’t come home.
I cry myself to sleep
Every night because
He didn’t come home.
Now I wonder why
He didn’t come home.
He never said why. So
I wait by the window
Everyday. Waiting.
Wondering why.
When he didn’t come home.
I found my daddy again.
When I was 6 I was
Taken away from my
Daddy. They didn’t
Say why. When she
Was alive she would
Tell me my daddy
Didn’t love me.
When she past
Away I wondered
If I would find my
Daddy again. When
I was 19 I found my
Daddy. And he still
Loves me……
I found my daddy again.
All the lies she told me.
When I asked her about my daddy
She told lies about him. When she
Went away I tried to find my daddy.
When I was 19 I found him. He told
Me the truth. That he never stopped
Loving his little girl. To this day
I never did understand why she
Told all the lie about my daddy.
All the lies she told me.
Can I forgive her for what she has done?
Can I forgive her for what
She has done? All the lies
She has told me about
My daddy. She said
Bad things about my
Daddy. But when I
Found the truth. She
Was gone. But in my heart.
Can I forgive her for what she has done.
I don’t understand why she told me so many lies.
I don’t know why she told me
So many lies. None of them
Are true. And I asked her
Why she told me so many
Lies. She never did answer
Why. When I found out
The truth. She was gone.
So I keep wondering why
She told me those lies.
I don’t understand why
She told me so many lies.
Why did they take my daddy away?
When they came to my house.
They took my daddy away.
My childhood dreams are
Gone because they took
My daddy away.”she” told
Them lies about my daddy.
I was taken to another place
With out my daddy. “she”
Took him away. Now I am
Older and I still wonder
Why did they take my daddy away.
Life without my daddy.
I was 6 when they
Took him away. I
Cried and they didn’t
Understand why I was
So sad. She told lies
About my daddy I spend
15 years with out him in
My life. Now he is back.
But I will always be sad.
Life without my daddy
He is far away but my daddy still loves me.
He is far away but my
Still loves me. “she” told
Lies about about my
Daddy. When I found
Out the truth. He was
Far away but my daddy
Still loves me. We talk
Everyday. She is gone
Now so she can’t take
Him away from me no more.
He is far away but my
Daddy still loves me.
“she” maybe gone but
My daddy is still with me.
“she” maybe gone but
My daddy is still with me.
“she” told so many lies
I thought she was telling
The truth. But I found
Out it was all lies.
“she” maybe gone but
My daddy still with me.
We are family
We are family
Just me and my
Daddy. He loves
Me. He will always
Be there for me.
We are family
Where oh where did my daddy go?
Where oh where did my daddy go?
He has been gone for a long time.
“she” told me he didn’t love me.
But I know that is not true.
Where oh where did my daddy go?
He has been gone for a long time.
He has been gone for a
Long time. But now
He is back in my life.
She is gone for good.
So now he can be
My daddy again.
He has been gone for a long time.
Daddies little girl.
When I was younger I was
Daddies little girl. He went
Away because she didn’t
Want him in my life.
Now she is gone.
And he is back in my life
I am still…..
Daddies little girl.
I wish that things were like they use to be.
I wish that things were like
They used to be. Holding
My daddies hand. Playing
With my big brother. I
Wish that things were
Like they used to be.
Before she took me
Away. It’s not fair
For us. Now she is
Gone now I wish
Even more. I
Wish that things were
Like they used to be.
The day he came home.
I waited by the window
Waiting for him to come
Home. She is gone now.
And all the lies she told
Me were not true. He
Finally came home to
Stay. he told me the truth.
The day he came home
We belong together forever.
We belong together
Forever. Just daddy
And me we belong
Together for ever.
No more lies just
My daddy and me
We belong together forever
When he went away.
When he went away
He didn’t tell me why.
When he went away
She told me lies.
When he went away
I would cry.
When he went away.
What matters the most
What matters the most
That my daddies loves
Me. What matters the
Most is that he is there
For me. What matters the most.
How many times she told so many lies.
How many times she
Told so many lies.
When she died.
I really didn’t understand
Why she told so many lies.
I think she was mad
Because my daddy loved me.
I don’t know how many
Time she told so many lies.
She maybe gone but I still hate her for what she did.
She maybe gone. But I hate
Her for what she did. She
Took my daddy away.
Now he is back in my
Life. But I hate her
For what she did to
My daddy and what
She did to me. She
Maybe gone but
I hate her for what she did.
Daddy come home daddy.
Daddy come home daddy.
I miss you so Why
Won’t you come home?
Daddy We belong together.
Don’t lsiten to her daddy.
I love you daddy.
Daddy come home daddy.
Why did you leave me daddy?
Why did you leave me daddy?
You said that you love me.
You said you would never
Leave me. “she” took you
Away but I don’t understand.
Why did you leave me.
Why did you leave me daddy?
Please come home daddy please come home.
Please come home daddy
Please come home. I
Miss you so. Please
Come home daddy
Please come home.
We belong together
Just you and I. when
I look in the sky. I
Remember all the times
We had together. I miss
All the times we had.
Please come home daddy
Please come home.
We belong together.
We belong together .
Just you and I.
When I look at
The sky. And
Wonder why
She told all
Those lies.
Now I know why.
We belong together.
Happy times.
Remembering the happy
Times we had. Laughing,
Playing, remembering
The times we shard.
Remembering…….
Happy times
Sharing all the good times.
Sharing all the goodtims
Just him and I. sharing
All the good times
Laughing all night long.
She can’t say anything.
Sharing all the good times
Remembering my daddy.
Remembering my daddy.
Kissing me every night.
Remembering my daddy.
Reading me a story every
Night. Remembering my
Daddy for who he was.
Remembering my daddy.
When she went away I found out the truth.
When she went away
I found out the trut.
I didn’t know what
She told me was not
True. Now I am all
Alone with out my
Daddy. I am very
Sad. I cry myself
To sleep. When
She went away I
Found out the truth.
Daddy where have you been?
Daddy where have you
Been? I haven’t seen
You in a while.
Daddy where have
You been? I am
Missing you so.
Daddy where have you been?
“she” took my daddy away.
“she” took my daddy away
Now he is back in my life.
I didn’t know why “she”
Told so many lies. But
Now she is gone. I
Don’t understand why
“she” took my daddy away.
Hugs and kisses at night.
When I go to bed at night
He sits on my bed and
Gives me hugs and kisses
Every night. “she” wouldn’t
Do it. She would send me to
Bed with no hugs or kisses.
But now “she” is gone.
And now I get my….
Hugs and kisses at night.
The witch is gone.
The witch is gone.
I am glad she is
Gone. She told
Lies about my
Father he does
Love me. She
Doesn’t care
How I feel.
The witch is gone.
She is out of my life.
She is out of my life.
I am glad she is gone.
She made so much
Trouble when I was
Growing up. My childhood
Is lost because she is a
Bad person my brother
Hates me because she
Made his life bad.
I am glad….
She is out of my life.
It takes two.
It takes two.
Just me and you.
It takes two
I want to dance
How about you?
It takes two.
Did he love me when she was gone?
Did he love me when
She was gone? I
Feel like he wants
To get rid of me.
Because she talked
Him into loving me.
But when she was
Gone he sent me
Away. Now I am
All alone and I keep
Asking myself….
Did he love me when she was gone.
He doesn’t love me like he used to.
He doesn’t love me like he used to.
He used to love me but now he
Don’t. He sent me away. But
I have a feeling he sent me
Away because he didn’t
Want anything to do with me.
He doesn’t love me like he used to.
He is gone too.
Now he is gone too.
Now I am all alone.
They were mean
To me anyway.
She is gone and
So is he. Now
I feel really blue.
Because….
He is gone too.
I am feeling blue.
I am feeling blue.
Because they went
Away. They lied
About my daddy.
They didn’t tell
The truth. Now
I am feeling blue.
They are out of my life.
They are out of
This time it is
For good. They
Lied about my
Daddy not loving
Me. This time….
They are out of my life.
Look at me now!
Look at me now.
I am all grown up.
Look at me now
I have a little one.
They are watching me.
Look at me now!
That was then this is now.
That was then this
Is now. I am happy
With my life. But
I still miss my
Childhood. They
Are gone now for
A long time. Do
I miss them? No.
That was then this is now.
We were happy together.
We were happy together.
Just them and I. but
They went away
And now I am alone.
The truth came out.
I didn’t know the truth
Until they were gone.
But I do remember….
We were happy together.
They tried to hide the truth.
When I was 14 she went
Away. When I was 16
He went away. When
I was 19 I found out
The about my father.
They tried to hide the truth.
Is their love worth it?
Is their love with it?
They keep giving me
The run around. I
Want the truth. They
Keep lying and hiding
The truth from me.
Now I know the truth.
Is their love with it?
Remembering the good old days.
Remembering the good old days.
Just my daddy and me. Wishing he
Was here with me. Wishing I could
See him one more time. Just him
And I. remembering the good old days.
Daddy tell me about the good old days.
Daddy tell me about the
Good old days. Just
You and I. daddy
Tell me about the
Good old days.
The way things
Used to be.
Daddy tell me about the good old days.
Daddy will you stay?
Daddy will you stay?
I miss you so. Daddy
Will you stay? “She”
Told lies about you.
I want to know the truth.
Daddy will you stay?
Daddy What do we do now?
Daddy what do we do now?
They are gone. Now the
Truth is out that she lied.
Daddy what do we do now?
Did she lie or did she tell the truth?
Daddy what do we do now?
Thinking of you.
Thinking of you
Night and day.
Wondering where
You have been for
So long. Thinking
Of you asking myself
Why “she” would tell
Me lies about you.
Thinking of you
Does he love me like he used to?
Does he love me like
He used to? When
I was little I was
Daddies girl. Now
I am older. He has
Been gone for a
Long time. Does
He love me like he used to?
We are like best friends.
We are like best friends.
You and I. I can talk
To you and tell you
Anything and you
Will understand what
I am trying to say.
We are like best friends.
She was the only mother I knew.
She was the only mother
I knew. But now she
Is gone. I wish I
Could ask her why
She would lie to me
About my daddy.
She was the only
Mother I knew.
Why would she turn on me now?
Why would she turn on me now?
I thought she loved me. Why
Would she turned on me if she
Loved me? I thought she was
My mother but she hates me
Because of my father. Why
Would she hurt me the way she did?
Why would she turn on me know?
I thought she loved me.
When she took me away from
My daddy. I was only 7 she
Didn’t say why. She took my
Brother away. But it just
Broke my heart. When
She made me take her
Last name I thought
She loved me. But she
Didn’t tell the whole
Truth about my daddy.
I thought she loved me.
Was she in it for the money?
Was she in it for the money?
Did she really love me?
Is that why she lied about
My mother and father
Just so she can have the
Money for herself? Did
She even care about me?
Or…… was she in for the money.
Was it true? did she love me? or
was she in for the money?
Was it true? Did she love me?
Or was she in for the money?
When she was gone the truth
Came out. It’s not right that
I was taken away. He didn’t
Want me anymore. So he
Made me leave my childhood
Home my friends. It’s not
Fair that this is the way it is.
But I keep thinking…..
Was it true? Did she love me…
Or was she in for the money?
Why would she take my daddy away?
why would she take my
Daddy away? He loves
Me for who I am.
Not for the money.
Why would she hurt
Me this way? She knows
I love my daddy.
Why would she take my daddy away?
Someday I will understand
someday I will understand
why things are the way
they are. I wish things
were different but they
are not. Someday I will
understand why she lied
why she hurt me. I thought
she loved me. But just to
get me to understand why
she did what she did.
Someday I will understand.
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