Isn’t funny how you relate to so much when you are happy, but nothing when you’re hopelessly lost in the dark? Hard to believe how powerful these silly little feelings leave you acting. Am I really happy? I don’t feel the way I used to. I thought I was fixed, that everything would be ok from now on. I was so wrong to think that. Depending on you for my happiness is so painful. How can I do this for the rest of my life? I can’t do this on my own. Does that mean I’m using you for my own benefit? If so then I’ve gotten what I deserved now. I feel as I did before, lost in depression. It was just a test you said. Why does it hurt so much? I’ve done everything and have given up so much to this relationship? Why does he hurt me like I’m the enemy? I’ve given all I have just to please you. Why can’t you see my love, effort, and loyalty? It’s not like I can leave, it’s not like I can make you see, and it’s not like I can give you what you want. really feels as if my heart is in my ribcage, but I’ll keep this smile just to know that you’re happy. I’ll hide this pain like I’ve always before.
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