rubycgd

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"i wish you were here"

by rubycgd

all my friends are getting drunk without me and i'm not okay but at least i'm far away staring out the passenger window i don't know what to say but at least i'm far away i don't feel okay and i don't know what to say and i ca...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1124 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"the basic life motto i follow"

by rubycgd

i need some space i need some time i need a life i need some wine...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1117 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"I Am Still Strong"

by rubycgd

Don't you dare preach to me that we're made of our mistakes. We just let ourselves think we have to carry them all with us-- it's okay to let go....

1 Like | 1 comment | 1084 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"listen,"

by rubycgd

you are a delicate flower. let yourself grow....

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1282 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Autumn"

by rubycgd

I need to scratch it all out Burn it on towering pyres Drown my old words in freshwater so it finds a new cycle It's so hard for me to keep this here It's still so fresh and still so trye and still I need it gone...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1056 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"2015"

by rubycgd

Today i felt the gray coming towards me, fogging my sight, holding me down. This is the worst kind of vice because it is the worst thing for me and yet, like an addict, I cannot stop. How do you turn your back on your hometown? How do you s...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 784 views | Prose | September 11, 2017

"September"

by rubycgd

Do you ever read someone's writing and suddenly you feel as if you just dunked the words in a cup of hot tea and took a sip, feeling them slide one by one down your throat until warmth flows through your entire body, nourishing every inch a...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 853 views | Prose | September 11, 2017

"sun and shadows"

by rubycgd

avoiding shades of gray and brown and lurking in the sun and shadows; they breathe in even more colors than you can imagine as the sun emerges it brings perspective and light and everything ...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1115 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Memories"

by rubycgd

She looks back: on who she was, who she loved who she used to be-- and looks back not with regret or loss or sadness but with the purest feeling of reminiscence because who is she to hate what can never be changed? who are the people...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1145 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"for a best friend"

by rubycgd

you are a tiny universe that is all your own; God forbid him from making you think otherwise...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1071 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"2014"

by rubycgd

It's amazing how one person can make you feel so incredible and lift you up and spin you around even when they're a thousand miles away but they can also make you curl up in a ball and cry yourself to sleep and listen to sad songs even whe...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1146 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Hands"

by rubycgd

Dirt on our hands and we're off again Fighting our way through the river Coffee goes quick like the words that don't stick We ignore how our cups taste bitter Slipping on mud You pull me up We're running for our lives Have to get to...

1 Like | 0 comment | 920 views | Undefined | September 11, 2017

"No Harm"

by rubycgd

i like your charm, you do no harm under your spell- with your hands pressed tight around my waist all night they're looking exotic but we just look like hell the pale moonlight illuminates our faces we do no harm but still w...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1149 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"say goodbye"

by rubycgd

you write songs like poetry you're quiet in company you made me a mix CD i play it on repeat you help me make things make sense you pull me up from where i've been i only ever find my way when you're there to pull me back aga...

2 Likes | 0 comment | 1101 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"if only"

by rubycgd

tried to get high, it didn't work i wake up every morning like i've been hurt i only dream about you thinking of her makes me want to cry thinking of all the other "hers" between you and i i only dream about you silent...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1075 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"first contact"

by rubycgd

thank you for being cold with me and for listening to me and for understanding that you don't need to try to fix me. my lungs must hate me but you love me enough for both of us....

0 Likes | 1 comment | 2203 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Sword and Shield"

by rubycgd

Dare not to see yourself as anything less than magnificent You are deified You are beyond extraordinary With your pen and ink (Sword and shield) Off you go...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1134 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"driving"

by rubycgd

the car is cold, our breath clings to the windows and waves to passers-by you tell me a joke and smile and i am driving under the influence as i watch you in the passenger seat...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1269 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Cliche"

by rubycgd

My feelings are coming back, pulling me back in and I have that same ache in my chest that I've been missing. Have I been missing this or missing you? I thought this was over, that I was numb again. It hurts but it feels good to hurt. I won...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1149 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Mean"

by rubycgd

I thought that maybe some time off would save me I wrapped it all up and told myself I'm crazy I lie in my room and it all looks too clean I let myself hope and you let me down I scream it all out when you're not around I close...

1 Like | 2 comments | 1263 views | Poetry | September 11, 2017

"Summer (part 3)"

by rubycgd

i miss you and i miss being with you and i miss hearing your voice and hearing you say my name and i'm so scared that when you see me again you'll realize you would be so much better off without me...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 713 views | Undefined | September 11, 2017

"Summer (part 2)"

by rubycgd

I didn't realize how much of my day is usually spent talking to him. I still miss him so much but I'm finding the upsides: he's sending me sweet messages, I get really excited every time I see a notification from him now, and I get to see v...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 703 views | Undefined | September 11, 2017

"Summer (part 1)"

by rubycgd

6/27 I don't know if I miss him because I just miss him or because I don't know if he's going to want me when he gets back. Some part of me keeps thinking that he'll come back and realize that he could do so much better than me. I'm trying...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 692 views | Undefined | September 11, 2017

"I Love You"

by rubycgd

i miss you like i’ve missed a meal your arms ghost around my waist i can hear you breathing...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1139 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"hold on"

by rubycgd

how does she make you feel tell me everything i will hold on how does she make you feel i don't wanna know i can't hold on much longer when it's cold and the night is lonely and i hope that you're thinking of me i will hold on...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 728 views | Undefined | August 14, 2017

"puzzles"

by rubycgd

i want to know just how you work i want to figure out how to not hurt nothing feels quite like when you're around but nothing feels right, anyway it's irrelevant it's useless please stop asking me how long cause the only thing i can focus...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 986 views | Undefined | August 14, 2017

"R.E.M."

by rubycgd

i've been trying 2 dream abt u i think i'm doing it wrong bc i'm not dreaming abt u i'm writing you a song maybe if i sleep for a year or four or seventeen or more i'll find a way to get me through tomorrow i'll find a way to get me out th...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 856 views | Undefined | August 14, 2017

"Mattress"

by rubycgd

i wanna write but i don't want anyone to read it cause when you're spilling out your guts you're still the only one who can feel it give me in depth details about your hard, hard life tell me how it feels to go to sleep perfect every night...

1 Like | 2 comments | 967 views | Undefined | August 14, 2017

"Like Flowers"

by rubycgd

there's a woman walking past me on the trail with shaky fingers and crooked knees purse clenched tight and eyes blinking wide...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1161 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Spotlight"

by rubycgd

Flashing back I’m a deer in the headlights clear throat, swallow, look up were the stage l...

1 Like | 0 comment | 1166 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Soft Hands"

by rubycgd

soft hands lovingly caressing blank pages...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1303 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"(I Wish) (I Promise)"

by rubycgd

Math class, i’m slouching pen tracing designs instead of integers Watching you from across...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1114 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Dysania: the state of finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning"

by rubycgd

She had strung up the fairy lights in her room to add a little extra light but it just means she’s less used to the dark now Beds...

1 Like | 0 comment | 1165 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Dysphoria: a state of dissatisfaction, anxiety, or restlessness; an unwell feeling"

by rubycgd

I’ve spent so many lonely nights lying next to you thinking “this isn’t where I want to be” Your entire life is filled with...

2 Likes | 0 comment | 1145 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Beginning"

by rubycgd

In the beginning, there was light I saw heavy double doors open and tempt me with it checkered glimpses of it alternating...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1184 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"You Are Worth Everything"

by rubycgd

it’s amazing to think that out of all the possible places on this earth i was put on the one...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1218 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"“side effects”"

by rubycgd

“MAY CAUSE DROWSINESS.” your eyelids will be 50-pound bricks, your head will always be too far from a pillow, your body...

1 Like | 2 comments | 1168 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"do you remember"

by rubycgd

do you remember the first time the day after thanksgiving, the friday when it was just a fli...

1 Like | 0 comment | 1221 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"Thrills"

by rubycgd

“There is nothing quite like the thrill of death.” I pause, turn around. Maybe I didn’t hear you well....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1267 views | Poetry | August 14, 2017

"“recents (4)”"

by rubycgd

i am droopy eyes and weary bones and thin skin i am skipped breakfast and three dinners and prickling fingertips...

3 Likes | 0 comment | 1072 views | Poetry | July 31, 2017