HopelessStephmantic

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"Really Broken"

by HopelessStephmantic

When people describe heart break, I never understood the severity of it. Not until it happened to me. I had my first heart break when I was sixteen. But that wasn't my first real heart break. Not even close. I had my heart broken agai...

1 Like | 4 comments | 1113 views | General | June 4, 2018

"Hopeless Heartbreak"

by HopelessStephmantic

My cousin and I weren't always close. She lived in a different town for a long while and moved back to our hometown when we were both sixteen, her being 3 months older than me. I loved my cousin with all my heart. She was sweet and kind and...

1 Like | 0 comment | 1047 views | General | June 2, 2018

"Hope"

by HopelessStephmantic

You're worth every second, You're worth every breath. You're the thing I hang on to when everyone else has left. You take your time to figure me out. You don't run away when you should be afraid. There's darkness inside me and it's r...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1131 views | General | June 2, 2018

"More than one number away"

by HopelessStephmantic

This is a song collaboration that im working on. it is a cover of 2 songs and im going to work on the lyrics and the transitions and then record them hopefully. Girl: People say he's only in my head. It's gonna take time but i'll forge...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1073 views | General | June 1, 2018

"Denial"

by HopelessStephmantic

My goals and my dreams are not what they seem. They aren't obtainable easily. Motivation comes and goes so rapidly. Sometimes I forget what im fighting for. I forget to patch the hole in my heart that you tore. I just want to love and...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1099 views | General | June 1, 2018

"More History of the Hopeless"

by HopelessStephmantic

We sat outside on a porch swing. The wind blew a gentle breeze that cooled off the summer night. He strummed the strings of his guitar and sang softly. It turned into a secret serenade that I wont soon forget. He sang "Amazed" by lones...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1090 views | General | June 1, 2018

"The Glimmer"

by HopelessStephmantic

The glimmer... Oh how it shines... I see it's glare from the hallway outside my closed bedroom door. The one I wished and prayed for you to walk back through all those times. But it doesn't help when someone turns out the light. Because...

1 Like | 0 comment | 1072 views | General | May 31, 2018

"Hitting the Groud"

by HopelessStephmantic

I feel like a balloon floating in the air. Too high for anyone to reach, Too low to be able to reach the sun. Eventually I get caught up in a power line, just like I get caught up in the false hope that everyone likes to feed me. I'm the...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1085 views | General | May 31, 2018

"The first time…"

by HopelessStephmantic

The moment I saw those two pink lines, I knew I'd protect you with everything I've got. The first beat of your heart that I heard on that monitor I knew you took all of mine. The first time I saw your face on the fuzzy screen I knew I'd k...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1114 views | General | May 30, 2018

"Here you go."

by HopelessStephmantic

If you're looking for a sign to start doing the right thing. If you're looking for something to tell you to stop that bad habit. If you're scrolling through the internet and stumble upon this, if you're hurting and need some hope, Here...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1084 views | General | May 27, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P6"

by HopelessStephmantic

Working together was not ideal. A few weeks went by and flirty glances were exchanged, slight hand touches, and smiles that meant more than just ‘hello, friend’. We both would deny it if Leo ever asked anything but he knew better. To sp...

1 Like | 0 comment | 864 views | Short Stories | May 27, 2018

"My boy…"

by HopelessStephmantic

Someone told me to try to write something happy... I'm not sure how to write about something that I'm not feeling... but here it goes... The only thing in this world that makes me smile, that brings me joy is the boy that I call my own....

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1146 views | General | May 26, 2018

"First rule of Club for the Hopeless…"

by HopelessStephmantic

I think sometimes we love too much. We put all our faith in someone and love them with all our hearts. we forget that at any moment in time they could change their mind. We forget to take a step back and think to ourselves, maybe they do...

0 Likes | 4 comments | 1108 views | General | May 25, 2018

"Happy endings"

by HopelessStephmantic

What if I'm the evil queen? Instead of being a hero, like I've thought I was my entire life, what if I'm actually a villain? That would explain far too much... Like why everything seems to go well for a while, and then eventually, when I'...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1184 views | General | May 23, 2018

"Magic…"

by HopelessStephmantic

They say that true love is the closest thing to magic we have here on earth. But I have a question for the creator of this thing called "true love". If it's true this is some sort of magic, Is it light magic, or dark magic? Now maybe I'v...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1200 views | General | May 20, 2018

"Even in finding myself, i still hope to find you."

by HopelessStephmantic

I'm still trying to find myself. But it's hard to find yourself in a world when you're constantly rescuing others. It's hard to figure out if you're the bad or good guy when everyones always making you out to be one or the other. what if...

2 Likes | 1 comment | 1083 views | General | May 20, 2018

"This moment"

by HopelessStephmantic

This is the moment in time that you can make a change. This moment. Not tomorrow, not next week, not starting on Monday. TODAY. Right-this-second. Start now, because as the wisest people I've ever known have said, this moment, this day...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1211 views | General | May 20, 2018

"Realizations"

by HopelessStephmantic

You know what I just realized? I'm like a whack a mole... I feel like every introvert is... I spend my life inside 4 walls, and im content. But sometimes I get the notion to come out. To see the sun. But the moment I do, Someone hits...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1067 views | General | May 19, 2018

"Goodbyes"

by HopelessStephmantic

You know what I hate? I hate how much life throws "goodbyes" at you. Whether it be in death, or heart break, we say goodbye far too often. And no matter how many times we say it, no matter how much we hear it, the pain is never any les...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1126 views | General | May 17, 2018

"You don’t understand… im alive"

by HopelessStephmantic

You don't understand the hurt. The pain. The constant feeling of emptiness. You don't understand waking up every morning. Going down the quiet stair case. Making coffee and rubbing dust away from your eyes. You don't understand how mu...

1 Like | 1 comment | 1051 views | General | May 17, 2018

"What’s worse?"

by HopelessStephmantic

Aurora's got phillip, Snow white's got charming, Ariel's got eric, and beauty got the beast. I read these stories and watch the movies, But instead of feeling hopeful, I feel fear. Fear of never having anyone. Fear of spending my day...

0 Likes | 2 comments | 1139 views | General | May 17, 2018

"Rembering is a curse"

by HopelessStephmantic

We swear we won't get ourselves in this mess again. We deny ever having any feelings at all. We tell ourselves that it was never meant to be. We say they weren't worth the hurt and the pain. But at the end of the day we forget everythin...

2 Likes | 2 comments | 1142 views | General | May 17, 2018

"Addiction"

by HopelessStephmantic

Addiction is hard. There's so many different types and forms. It comes at you without warning sometimes. Other times you feed it and nurture it and make it become real. The thing you're hooked on feels so good. Then afterwards you fee...

0 Likes | 4 comments | 1030 views | General | May 14, 2018

"Realistic Thoughts"

by HopelessStephmantic

What if jasmine never went to the market place? What if Cinderella never lost her slipper? What if Noah never met Ali? My idea of love would be so much different. Maybe I wouldn't get myself in the messes that I do. I would be more reali...

0 Likes | 5 comments | 1635 views | General | May 13, 2018

"The History Of The Hopeless"

by HopelessStephmantic

Fourteen years old, holding onto a boy whom i thought I loved. We spun around and held each other tight. Dancing under the cheesy lights to “the dance” by garth brooks. He smiled at me and moved closer until there was not even an inch o...

1 Like | 5 comments | 789 views | Undefined | May 13, 2018

"Someone’s watching over me"

by HopelessStephmantic

As I walked along the deserted beach early that Sunday morning, the clouds covered the sun and made it a gloomy morning. I stepped on something hard and cold. I groaned in pain and dropped to my knees on the soft sand. I looked at my foot a...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 875 views | Short Stories | May 13, 2018

"Lions, Tigers…. Oh Goodbye"

by HopelessStephmantic

All I can do is wish the best of luck to you. And pray that all your dreams come true. Because we both know im no good for you. You look around like we're at a zoo. Like there's so many different exhibits for you to choose. The lions a...

0 Likes | 1 comment | 1091 views | General | May 13, 2018

"The Girl"

by HopelessStephmantic

There's a girl sitting on my bed. She lays down every once in a while to rest her head. She places her hand upon her heart. Praying to God the tears don't start. There's a girl driving in my car. She takes the same path every day to th...

3 Likes | 1 comment | 1155 views | General | May 13, 2018

"If you’re a bird…"

by HopelessStephmantic

If you're a bird, I'd want to be a stick. One so fine that you couldn't resist. You'd fly over me, laying on a beach. You'd pick me up and hold me with your beak. You'd take me back to the tree of your own. You'd place me in your nest...

1 Like | 2 comments | 1159 views | Poetry | May 12, 2018

"Leaving"

by HopelessStephmantic

Maybe sometimes we need a wake up call. We have to stop dreaming and hitting the walls. Take the heartbreak and still somehow smile. Because time will heal it after a while. That's what they tell me at least and I believed it. Until it...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1794 views | Poetry | May 12, 2018

"Just Thoughts…"

by HopelessStephmantic

Every passing day hurts even more. Knowing that your arms aren't mine anymore. Wishing your heart would still beat for me. But the words you say don't match what I see. I can't help but wish we could go back. But now we make very littl...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 1060 views | General | May 12, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P5"

by HopelessStephmantic

The next day I woke up and got dressed for the day. Leo texted me letting me know my first meeting was with Gregory at noon. He set up both meetings at Amy’s café. I sat down at a corner booth in the café and waited with my usual coffee...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 849 views | Short Stories | May 12, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P4"

by HopelessStephmantic

I locked up the office a few hours after Leo went home and I found a good stopping place in my brain storming. Every Sunday evening I go to the cemetery and visit my mother. When I was thirteen she passed away. She had stomach cancer and lo...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 950 views | Short Stories | May 12, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P3"

by HopelessStephmantic

A few hours went by and I got an idea for a childrens book whilst in the middle of my novel. I started writing and had images of illustrations in my head. “Leo, im going to post on craigslist an add about an illustration job with me. Will...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 839 views | Short Stories | May 12, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P2"

by HopelessStephmantic

Finally after what seemed like a lifetime I snapped out of it, but only because she smiled, and oh what a smile it was. She wore red lipstick that lined her lips perfectly and her teeth were like pearls shining so brightly I swore she had t...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 905 views | Short Stories | May 12, 2018

"Santa Monica Goodbye P1"

by HopelessStephmantic

So here I am, sitting at the edge of the Santa Monica pier at three in the morning. Kids laughing running by me. Couples mocking me with their obnoxious public displays of affection. I stare out into the dark abyss, tracing the line where t...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 889 views | Short Stories | May 12, 2018