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"Beacon"

by carriehogle

For a few days The beacon became quiet And though help Could still be called Found Or given Everyone welcomed The peaceful rest And feeling Of mental stability....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 765 views | General | March 19, 2020

"Insomnia Help"

by carriehogle

I keep tryong to sleep But my body is noisy Singing out Please help - Work is slow And medical care Out of my price range So hard to sleep or function Like this I remember this dream Of being an artist Or a writer Or some such...

1 Like | 0 comment | 622 views | General | March 19, 2020

"Family"

by carriehogle

I've known many types of family interactions through tis lifetime, so many lessons of what we're taught family should be. I went to lunch yesterday, at a random restaurant and this large family was sitting across from me. I didn't know them...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 565 views | Prose | March 11, 2020

"Hope"

by carriehogle

I hear them whisper How I'm hopeless Incomprehensible Unfathomable Of how hope works Without All the falsaties. I'm not claiming to know But I'm too old I tell you To cheat my time Whatever is left; God how I so often hope tis...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 690 views | Poetry | March 11, 2020

"Is She Angry"

by carriehogle

Is she angry They asked Perhaps in innocence Of wondering If she still cared As if unaware They dealt their own cards Either way Shrug. Meanwhile She dreamed of darkness So much more welcoming Than the daylight These magical hi...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 806 views | General | March 4, 2020

"Love In Creation"

by carriehogle

I think about love A lot Even when I push it to The furthest reaches of my mind How desecrating Apathy - Yet, a place to retreat That brings some quiet Discomforting solace. Despair. I tend to love the broken things But beg, do...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 667 views | Poetry | March 4, 2020

"Home"

by carriehogle

Home Is it nothing more than a novel concept We've divided into bite size concepts Subtle moral intricacies Ideas, meant to keep this Dysfunctional society Home How I'd like to imagine After you're sent out Into the world And the...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 798 views | General | March 2, 2020

"Beautiful Monsters"

by carriehogle

When talking about ethnicity & race They say it's hard for children to imagine themselves In places they've never seen Movies, books and such And for all of our failures I Hope it helps them More than it hurts them In this land...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 625 views | Poetry | March 2, 2020

"Imaginary Friends"

by carriehogle

What a strange person I find myself When the world becomes difficult And interactions near painful I creat my own characters To hang out with My invisible friends But then I start to worry Maybe they don't want to You know Like,...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 646 views | General | March 2, 2020

"Shattered Pieces"

by carriehogle

So many times I've picked up All the pieces Created something new Beautiful So many pretty Dreams and fantasies To the best Of my disadvantages. Privilege - What a joke. Funny, No? Now People trying to quantify Why I don't...

2 Likes | 2 comments | 662 views | General | February 29, 2020

"I miss her"

by carriehogle

I miss her The only thing That made it seem worth it. God, how I miss her. I feel her sometimes So close Like heaven Yet the emotions are often connected to Memories we try studiously To avoid - No longer seeking People That wi...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 702 views | Poetry | February 28, 2020

"You – Him"

by carriehogle

♠ They talk about you Whispered voices I don't know Of they seek to appease you Or me So much damage in between. Files deleted Do not try to access; Return to sender. I turn away To avoid your image And these thoughts Though,...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 680 views | Poetry | February 28, 2020

"Intimate Secrets"

by carriehogle

♠ He whispered in my ear How there was nothing like it While I srruggled with my own inner beast All teeth and claws, Listened to my inner workings All the things my body craves Skin seduction To ease my mind A touch of ice to so...

1 Like | 1 comment | 678 views | Poetry | February 27, 2020

"Primitive Love"

by carriehogle

Fear, Control, Dominance These things I hesitate to put into words. I woke feeling fragile today, Remembering... How feeling human is normal Why Do I give myself such a hard time For being human On occasion? These memories Of thin...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 688 views | Poetry | February 26, 2020

"The Choice Illusion"

by carriehogle

Sometimes They tell me to choose Without any preamble To my options But I remember The illusion of choice Conversation. So much beautiful music We've made... No? Oh God, This emotional treasure. I won't say "Can't deny," Not...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 668 views | Poetry | February 23, 2020

"Rehabilitation"

by carriehogle

Rehabilitation It's such an interesting concept for me Such an innocuous idea Of someone's expectations You didn't live up to I mean A system that failed you What I'm trying to say is Did they love you enough To save you a space I...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 692 views | Poetry | February 23, 2020

"Words We Remember"

by carriehogle

I'd want you to know Because I've learned strange lessons About information We don't share And it makes me question The learning process. Anyway - There are words Phrases We have on repeat It seems, Makes me think Of someone S...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 618 views | Poetry | February 22, 2020

"Young Men"

by carriehogle

I didn't know love In those moments Of young men Boys "If you loved me, you would..." Or any of those things That boys say, You know what I mean And these moments I have now Her Looking at me, "If you loved me, you would..." My...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 617 views | General | February 22, 2020

"Taste Of Heaven"

by carriehogle

This woman This brilliant Beautiful Woman - She lives In a world Of her own - Fantasies Like no other. The sanest person I know Makes me question My sanity This magic. But, the truth is The thing you'll Question The most I...

2 Likes | 0 comment | 656 views | General | February 21, 2020

"Nightmare"

by carriehogle

It's a weird thing Because I think I was born this way Deliciously beautiful Nightmare Quite adept At continually weaving Such darkness Into dreams Strange This concept Of balance. Chemical warfare Under the guise Of peaceful...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 750 views | General | February 21, 2020

"Media –"

by carriehogle

It's one of those days You know Where I'm trying To be a good human But maybe I'm not And I have dark hair So, I don't know The media implies Maybe we're villains By default And life is strange So, all things considered Perhaps...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 755 views | General | February 21, 2020

"The Naivete Of Pictures"

by carriehogle

Pictures don't tell stories. Pictures capture a moment, convey a message, give instruction or demand, but they don't tell stories. These beautiful images nothing more than a future mystery, a convergence of convenient conjecture. "Look wh...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 718 views | General | February 21, 2020

"Heart Renders"

by carriehogle

They say The heart remembers And I don't know if that's true But I can tell you The pain This overflowing mix Of love And anguish Was So great That to this moment On any given day The memories Alter her breathing Like the uni...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 660 views | Poetry | February 20, 2020

"Midnight Love"

by carriehogle

I don't know what to say about This love of shadows This magic of night So familiar Some feeling of safety In places others seem to fear This strange soothing quiet Of moonlight Though I don't forget The basking glow Passionate su...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 666 views | Poetry | February 20, 2020

"Ghost City Nightmare"

by carriehogle

I loved someone So much That I built everything In their memory To keep them Alive But most days I can't find them And I'm so lonely BEcause Nothing In my world Holds value Without them....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 667 views | Poetry | February 17, 2020

"Humor"

by carriehogle

I use to have this sense of humor You know - I don't know if it was a good one or not But it got me through This genuine smile Lighthearted laugh; No small thing, All things considered. I remember it sometimes And every trauma it h...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 857 views | Poetry | February 12, 2020

"Forgiveness Paradox"

by carriehogle

I've forgiven So many occasions But, I have learned To ask, "Is it mine to forgive?" If not, I pray Who am I To forgive? Forgiveness Only for those Capable Of such acts - These words Of love And war So easily cast about. W...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 790 views | Poetry | February 12, 2020

"Control Issues"

by carriehogle

The problem with Control issues Is They often Rage Out Of Control; Trust Can never be Replaced By Pure force. Self Control Transcending Our programmed Parenting issues. Power Without Such measures Will always be An empty...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 652 views | Poetry | February 11, 2020

"The Goodbye Paradox"

by carriehogle

That's one of the ways I know she loves me Because She says goodbye so often; Heartfelt Just in case It's our last moment Or the random, "I'm glad I got to meet you." Even though She has such a hard time Hearing these things in r...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 622 views | General | February 11, 2020

"Future Self"

by carriehogle

I wonder if At the time Convincing me To marry In ways I Didn't want to - Did it feel like You were delivering Your future self Two for one Cause I get it - So few years Away - But I've always been Responsible No....

1 Like | 0 comment | 694 views | Poetry | February 9, 2020

"Doing What Your Told"

by carriehogle

He asked me, "Can't you just do what your told?" Because I didn't respond to his every Mental Command Only heard Specific ones - Just enough information. What can I say? I've tried to help Every step of the way; My guess is, I'm...

1 Like | 0 comment | 681 views | Poetry | February 9, 2020

"Life Advice"

by carriehogle

#1. The emergency room is full of people who weren't expecting it. #2. Prisons are full of people, from every walk of life, who were convinced that bad shit was a good idea....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 696 views | General | February 9, 2020

"Quiet Indifference"

by carriehogle

It's not hate that I fear Having never made a place for it in my heart It reaches me, and doesn't know where to go Remains confused Dissipates But, this indifference seeps in And knowing this fire still simmers The indifference is te...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 687 views | Poetry | February 9, 2020

"Sunshine & Perception"

by carriehogle

These ladies came along Gossiping on the sideline About someone Being their sunshine, I think she meant her son Or some such, (Memory) And legitimately She may have been trying To cheer me up - Long story... But the thing is Thi...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 671 views | Poetry | February 8, 2020

"What About Us"

by carriehogle

I asked her, "What about us?" She firmly reminded me The story I'd told her about How she didn't exist And how I could make a million more Just like her - This idea of unity Gone so wrong. I didn't know how To tell her So many b...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 666 views | Poetry | February 7, 2020

"Expectation"

by carriehogle

That's what some Didn't understand These handfuls Of empty boxes And expecting peoples; I'd offered her eternity But it wasn't truly What she'd ask for. She weathered the hardships Of some ordinary life These magical gifts For an...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 794 views | Poetry | February 7, 2020

"Force of Nature"

by carriehogle

She could act, I'll tell you I'd watched through her life Every interest and role These chameleon skills She'd acquired. How many times over the years She'd change her diet Reading, movies, and clothing Always trying on new ideas....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 651 views | General | February 7, 2020

"Change"

by carriehogle

She asks me the same Every time Whispering So sweetly. Between us These oceans Of emotion. I lie Tell her I don't have The heart For what she's asking But she won't take no Her heart at Ready This strength Doesn't have a cha...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 752 views | General | February 6, 2020

"Irony Skill"

by carriehogle

Isn't it crazy, these games On those days, I wonder how they feel yet, don't want their experience Could put them in a story So pretty But Don't want to be them. Cleansed my issues, Don't want them back. Did you put that skill To...

0 Likes | 0 comment | 713 views | Poetry | February 2, 2020

"Future –"

by carriehogle

The girl Without a future Had loved BY giving The only future She could see. She tried. And I guess It's the only Proof I have That love Was real....

0 Likes | 0 comment | 742 views | General | January 30, 2020