Who’s fucking idea was it for you two to date?
Both your reasons was built on a lie.
Her afro nor his honesty was real or the truth.
Who’s fucking idea was it to KEEP me?
To bring me into this world I was never meant to be in.
To be a third wheel in your triangle of sin.
HE said that (SHE) said she was on the pill.
Then He said he didn’t want to bring another illegitimate child into the world again.
Who’s fucking idea was it to get married?
When he NEVER even THOUGHT to kneel on one knee.
(She) did not want to wait and just settled for a ring while dangling from the ideals of his goodwill. simply just trying to get it right this time.
She was snuggled tight within the crevices of her love for him,
OR
what MAYBE even what it appeared to be…..
Trying 2
Who’s fucking idea was it to STAY together?
To live happily then angrily, and painfully, and tearfully there after.
I can remember him wanting to leave again and AGAIN.
She said she begged him to stay whenever he did.
Who’s fucking idea was it to forgive?
He cheated on her and gave her herpes.
She (STILL ) “loved” him and decided to stay.
After all, he was taking care of her,
He made and paid the way.
She said : “Where was I going to go.”
Who’s fucking idea was it to leave?
Now, even after 31 YRS.
HE’S GONE
And every struggle to “Be” has just faded away, like the end of a song.
Even her desire to love him and be with him has slowly dissipated, with all those passing days.
Who’s fucking idea was it to create fairy tale stories?
And WHY the fuck WASN’T I given one to see.
Why the fuck wasn’t I told earlier that my parents story wasn’t even meant to “Be.”
That it wasn’t the way holy matrimony should have been.
That theirs was NOT ordained by God and
that It was distorted by A man, A woman AND HIS WOMEN
(MY) WORLD…..
WAS
…….DiSTortEd
Whose fucking idea was it?
Who’s fucking idea was it for the sins of our fathers to pour onto their children?.
Because NOW we all have seemed to find someone with the same PACKAGE and a WHOLE family HAS IT.
A real generational curse WE have to LIVE.
With WONDERING, how it would have been if she would have just taken that little blue pill….
No one ever asked me if I wanted to be HERE..
Maybe IT would have been better for us all if it was never a Mr. And Mrs. THEM
Your FUCKED UP marriage, that stemmed from YOUR own individual shallow reasons
DID NOT
JUST affect YOU
Because ( I)…
WUZ THERE TOO
I FELT THE PAIN TOO!
AND children feel pain just like YOU.
Maybe even more than you
Because a child can’t understand why Daddy doesn’t love Mommy too
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