If I would have been better in school you would have been proud
If I hadn’t failed my first class in 4th grade you wouldn’t have doubted me at such a young age
If I made better grades you would have been proud
If I wasn’t so hyperactive, talkative you would have liked me
If I hadn’t started substance abusing at 13 you wouldn’t have blamed my mother, your wife, for “my problems”
If I didn’t have problems with getting into trouble at school you would have loved me
If I had finished college in 4 years you would have been proud
If I gave up my happiness to become you, you would love me
But I don’t wanna be anything like you
You are cold and a disappointment to your only daughter and wife
How does it feel being the failure in the end
finally you feel what I did for so long
You will never know how much I struggled in school
I was lost and had no one to help me when I failed my first class, but you didn’t care .. I failed and that was that
My grades reflected how I felt inside .. unmotivated, lost, confused
You never even tried to help me with my problems so I waited to be diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 25 .. do you know how much could have been done if you had paid attention
If you had cared at all with what I was going through you would have known that substance abuse is a common thing with bipolar disorder .. I was just trying to cope
I was lost and angry so I pushed back in school .. but I was a child
College was a culture shock and I had been left behind in the public school system so I had to reteach myself
WHY did you not help me
You strive to be perfect, but look what that’s gotten you
unhappiness
Poetry
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True , parents expect the mountain , if disappointed , fail to analyse its reason. Finally the result leads everyone unhappy. It’s a usual observation with parents. This blind expectations of parents is very well depicted, in detail.Nice……… I liked it……… kranand
Thank you Kranand.
Your quote, “parents expect the mountain , if disappointed , fail to analyze its reason.” gives me new understanding where in fact, they truly believe this way of parenting would, in the end, bring me great success and happiness. If only I would’ve had this insight at the time where, not only was a feeling this, but living it. I can say now, PROUDLY that I feel understood and have the support I always had, but never noticed.
Again thank you.
Thank you Kranand.
Your quote, “parents expect the mountain , if disappointed , fail to analyze its reason.” gives me new understanding where in fact, they truly believe this way of parenting would, in the end, bring me great success and happiness. If only I would’ve had this insight at the time where, not only was a feeling this, but living it. I can say now, PROUDLY that I feel understood and have the support I always had, but never noticed.
Again thank you.