The problem with loving two men,
Is the when it all comes out, the rain begins.
Not saying names, but honestly thought one was just playing games,
While the other, was being sincere,
When i had the out with the one,
I couldn’t understand why i shed so many tears.
Now i understand, its bittersweet really,
Love makes no sense, and is foolish and silly.
They say the only illogical feeling is love,
Their right you know.
Now im stuck between the two worlds, sad and angry
So i chose to go.
The one i chose, said friends always,
But i doubt thats going to happen if i go my own way.
They never really mean what they say.
Im better off alone,
Cold and uncaring.
Hardened ,callous , stone.
Not fit for happiness
Not fit to feel bliss.
I feel horrible i hurt that guy,
Because i didnt want to hurt anyone, for i know how that feels.
Hurts more than a kick in the face, for real.
I know he hates me….
I know all he wants to do is hurt me because i hurt him.
Feel like going underwater until the lights go dim.
But i wont, life isn’t inbound like people think,
It’s just a cycle, a path, that seems to shrivel and shrink.
I can’t really share this with anyone else, they wont understand.
Then if i do, there will be questions that will be asked.
Then ill truly break, for all my feelings will be unmasked.
But one truth, hes already done what he came to do,
He hurt me too.
He was only half right that night in pm,
Because i loved them both, yes two, stephan and him.
Of course i already told stephan, told him going in.
I knew this was a battle i could not win.
But to be honest, its too late,
Now ill live with my choice, my fate.
No matter where this path takes me.
Ill always remember never to let this happen again.