It hurts being alone
Just wanting to feel wanted
Just wanting someone to hold u
Someone u can’t have
I’m lonely.
And when I’m lonely I start to think, I start to feel, I start to talk.
And I think about everything, overthinking thing after thing
I feel everything, every feeling and emotion
And I rant and rant abt how I’m feeling to ppl who can’t help but sometimes it feels good to get it out there
So I’m not stuck
And when I’m stuck I start to wonder why I’m here
I wonder what my purpose is in life
I wonder abt death and what happens when you die
It’s scary, the unknowing
I wonder if he wonders abt me the way I wonder abt him
I miss him
And when I miss him I forget the way he treated me
I forget why he’s not good for me
I forget he doesn’t care abt me anymore
I forget he hates me
I forget he’s not coming back
I just wish he would come back
And when I wish, I wish real hard
Hoping I’m manifesting my wishes
Hoping that the universe will hear my wishes and grant them
Hoping that I’ll reach these wishes
One day, maybe i will.
And when I think maybe, I get stuck in this loop again with other wishes and wonders hoping that I will forget that I’m alone.
Poetry