What if I don’t survive this experience?
To it all, I can’t survive experiments.
Just as I am without somebody to love me,
I can’t believe who I really have become.
But I have no one to blame but myself,
I am a disgrace to this cold world itself.
What if I don’t choose to live?
This world as we all know a bitch.
Because I needed you more,
It’s like my life is a bore.
What if I don’t die?
I can’t even think why.
All these bodies I am torn,
The Bible is thy word.
Am I ashamed? No!
Am I to blame? No!
I can’t live living life to the fullest,
All I have to become of myself is a shame.
I can’t believe who I am truest inside,
These memories are shit and I’m to blame.
And all I think of is you baby!
Why oh why are you doing this to me?
Can’t I live without you?
My world is like fitting a shoe.
Trust me I already died inside,
And they can’t blame me for this.
Youngsters late at night,
They better be inside by dusk.
Maybe I am too blamed,
Dude, I can’t live insanity.
Done playing your sick games,
Bitch what have you done to me?
What if I cannot be in freedom?
Liberty is not that free.
Thy Lord thy kingdom come,
Bible is the word almighty.
Insanity is a bitch tonight,
Mournful I am the sickness.
I cannot have the courage to fight it,
Reach inside pull out my intestines.
Rich or poor I’ll survive,
Just you know how bloody can I?
Trust me what if I died,
All the world I knew I fight.
Cannot believe how I know you all,
What if I cannot breathe?
I just need you at my own fault,
Just don’t love without me.
All I ever want what if I don’t,
Have you ever needed anybody?
I’m not saying this is your fault,
But how does this involve me?
I just wanted you and me alone,
Cannot believe you’re this way.
This world cannot be your home,
You’ll make this your own today.
Look at the positives in ourselves,
Until the world, we live dies.
Wishful thinks we’re the lone wolves,
Jump off the cliff like a high dive.
It can wait and what if it can’t?
Really you’re the saddest person alive.
All you’ve done is dissing my fate,
Just you wait, you shall never survive.
I cannot have it to my own advantage,
This bloody world is an eternal hell.
Young as you are there’s a small chance,
Till I never will but thy word is still.
To all I know about you is hatred,
Loving you still is sickening me.
All I’ve seen in you is your face red,
Because you’ve been making me bleed.
Goodly enough I can escape,
What if I don’t leave in time?
Jump well my friend before it’s too late,
You surely don’t wanna die.
What if I didn’t hear you thoroughly?
You’ve done to me is left me to bleed.
Can I not have you to my own world right?
I see how it’s going down tonight.
You’ve been lying,
You’ve been denying.
I’ve been trying,
I’ve been dying.
All you’ve done to me is stopping harm,
Trust and you’ve been a deceitful charm.
Left me to rot,
You got me shot.
All you’ve done is the pity,
Trust me.
Too much is plentiful,
My world isn’t peaceful.
It’s all pretend playing,
Don’t know what I’ve been saying.
The coldhearted world here I come!
I need the knowledge never dumb.
You’re the reason why,
What if I don’t even try?
A world is sick already,
What if you deny?
I’ll wait for you as long as it takes,
Don’t pretend you never made mistakes.
What if I don’t make it?
This cold world is already sick.
What if?
What if?
What if?
What if I don’t live to tell my stories?
What if she doesn’t pretend its imaginaries?
Read this from beginning to ending,
And thanks for listening.
Poetry
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Like the way you explain this in a jump back and forth kind of way , thanks for sharing