Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and think “what have you done to yourself?” I’ve never really realized how sick I was until one day when I was out, it was really hard to function well. I was too weak to walk. Could hardly pick anything up. I didn’t eat, sleep, or shower. I’d have these huge mental fits. and I really hurt my family. I didn’t have friends or goals. I felt alone in this world honestly. One day I decided to end my life. Before I took a shower I prayed to god for some strength courage. As I was in the shower the first cut went deeper than any other. The second cut didn’t work. I pressed harder and harder each time but it didn’t cut. feeling so hopeless someone came to my mind. My friend who I knew could help. I didn’t get a response for days.. so I gave up once more. As soon as I was crying because of my feelings. He messaged me. We talked for hours and hours. I couldn’t stop laughing and smiling. He saved my life. The next day he surprised me with asking me to think of him as my boyfriend. A lot happened after then. About a month later I was finally happy for the first time since a child. Then the second and third month was so bad. He went from hurting me with girls to ignoring me for five days. These are the only details I want to give. Today I left an abusive relationship because he brought me to even worse than I was before. I wasn’t happy the last two months, but I pushed through. Now I’m at my weakest point.
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Stay strong young lady. Get through tonight. Tomorrow’s a new day. There’s more to read and to write, and your voice matters through pain and sorrow. Be strong and take care right now.