Its calm, its peaceful, I thought about everyone & everything that meant most to me, and they were ok. So, I let all as well be. I settled, and tried to find my peace in all that was fine. I do not won’t to burden them with the constant pain & passion I go through daily. See, although everything is fine, I battle with this powerful feeling that I’m not doing what I’m supposed to be doing in life. That I’m meant to be doing something else. This feeling torments me day and night. I look at my kids, everything I’m building with my companion. I mean, this is how I was groomed that life should be like. My God, I don’t wanna tear down everything I’m building and uproot my kids. Everything is ok, why should I disrupt the calm, the stability in my home? In our lives??.
Then the voice within me spoke, it said, Move fear, why settle for what you’re doing & everything being ok knowing that your heart isn’t any where near it? I told myself, Maybe I should just leave well enough alone. My voice within said, Stop it! You only have one life to live. Why live the rest of your life with regrets not even attempting to live your life how you really want to live it? Live your only life to the fullest! Leave no stone unturned in this precious life you have! Don’t sell yourself short, if things don’t workout in all you pursue at least you can say you tried. I broke down to my knees in tears, and I understood that I’ve been living life comfortably unhappy. Sure, everything was fine on the outside, but I was swimming in a river of tears on the inside, and often overlooking it.
I picked myself up from the floor, wiped my face, and set myself free from any of my old ways of thinking. I began doing just what we were meant to do in life, and that was to LIVE! I allowed myself to start enjoying every moment, every hour of life. I wrote down the things I like to do, and the things I’m good at doing. I began to do those things or pursue the things I liked to do & good at. I vowed not to let being comfortably unhappy never set in again, because it’s silent destruction and no one hears those cries of unhappiness but you.
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Christopher Dilworth
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I like how this plays out like an inner monologue. Great work!
Your piece is really good. I love how its written like a journal of your thoughts. It feels like I’m reading your own personal thoughts on your life, which I think is really cool. I think everyone can relate to trying to live their in the best way possible, and enjoy every moment. Anyways, good work!
Excellent Introspection that would happen in most of the people with great dreams to attain in life. The way it’s written as a monologue is further laudable.I am excited to read through it , quite a nice flow of thought and connectivity, beginning to end,
It is a great read . It needs correction of spellings in one or two places , and to re arrange lines. ……….kranand
I am tempted to write again my excitement about the TITLE. It sums up the entire matter in two words, a catchy title that attracts any thoughtful reader to linger through out. Its quite cute and artistic. …….kranand