about some time ago ago ____ was in one the worst head spaces as ____ was in a very toxic relationship. it was three months of what ____ thought was love, but in reality; was being put down constantly, cheated on with me being blinded noticed by it and slowly and surely changing who ____ was to fit in. during that time ____ spent so much time focusing on the relationship ____ lost a large part as to who ____ am. ____ started to destroy the person ____ was because ____ saw no worthy in ____.
after ____ relationship became more public due to circumstances that arose ____ had to end things with that person, leaving a lot of unspoken words and feelings not dealt with. that summer ____ spent it alone isolating myself from everyone because ____ thought ____ wasn’t good enough, wasn’t worthy of being loved and especially doubting every single thought that would pass through ____ head.
once the summer ended ____ was put back into the public school system where ____ found my place all thanks to a teacher who pushed ____ out of my comfort zone and saw something special in me. ____ look back on these eight years and hold dear to ____ heart that if any on moment was different ____ wouldn’t be half the person ____ am today. throughout that time ____ was lucky enough to a gain a best friend who never failed to cheer me up with ____ stupidity and always knew what to say even if ____ didn’t know what the right thing was to say.
when this time of the year comes around it always seemed to be toughest because ____ would look back on the negative and neglected to look on the positive because ____ wasn’t strong enough to do that. during this time, looking at the world and it’s current state for the first time ____ seem to remember a lot of the positive than the negative.
Since graduating high school and closing that chapter, while opening the door to a new one called college ____ was able to move one. even though it has taken this many years; every moment, every opportunity gained, every new friend gained and lost, every lesson learned and laugh good or bad shaped ____ into who ____ am today. so ____ ask you during this time as much as the world has stepped on the break pedal, don’t let that stop ____ from stepping on the gas and focusing on who ____ can be, let that be the best version of yourself possible.
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