There are no words for this pain. This pain no one should know.
But this, at least, is MY pain and I will not let it go.
No one will take it from me, I will fight you to the death.
This pain is my treasure, because it is all that I have left.
How dare the world keep spinning, I want no more of it.
I will not give in! Never again here, will I fit.
My heart will remain forever torn, I will not let it mend,
because when I lost you, my world could only end.
Every time I slip, and feel the briefest smile,
I feel that stab of guilt, and my betrayal all the while.
How can I ever move my heart back to joy and light?
Any hope or happiness still feels so far from right.
How dare I know a moments peace.
How dare those damn stars shine.
How dare the world keep spinning
Once it’s taken what was mine.
If I rebuild, if I find joy
What ever will I do?
If any light breaks through this pain,
Will it mean I don’t miss you?
What if you saw, from up above, my world begin to turn again?
How could I forgive myself if I allowed my heart to mend?
Watching me from heaven would you feel betrayed?
How could I have ever loved you if I allow my life remade.
But then your face I see, so full of love and light.
Eyes so eager for adventure, a heart so full and bright….
And I have my answer. I know what you would want,
With your sweet soul; full of a happiness that can’t be taught.
I know why the stars are still shining.
I know why the world still turns.
One day I will rejoin it,
But that is something I must relearn.
It will not happen today.
No, it will not be tomorrow.
For you, I will promise to rejoin this world.
But for now, I still need my sorrow.
-katrina rawls daniels 6/15/16
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