I felt like everything we built is just gone, I don’t trust you the way I did nor do I love you the same. My mind hated you and my heart was blinded by the fact that I loved you. I felt like you built me up just to destroy me just like my past. I felt like I didn’t know you anymore. I promise if stuff ever went the way it was you’d probably do the same thing…. I guess you were better off going out finding someone that could give you what you wanted since I couldn’t. I felt like I was no longer an priority to you but yet a choice. I guess she was better than me because you settled. Like was you that desperate that it was so easy for a person to come in and take my place. I swear I wanted to get back with you. I wanted you to stay up all night thinking about the thought of me choosing and loving someone else over you. I wanted you to feel the sickness in your stomach the same way I did when I thought about you and how you played me. I wanted it to devour your happiness. I wanted you to feel that sharp pain in your chest and that urge you feel from not receiving air because you’re so worked up that you can barely breathe. I hated you for making me feel so protected and secure that you actually cared for me for once. Just to take it all away from me.
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