I tell him no,
Plead him to go
He looks up at my leisurely,
Then pulls at my clothes and says, “Let me see.”
I feel so frozen, as if I’m not really there,
Emptiness in my place, reflected despair
It starts to get rough, he pins me down,
I want so badly to be tough, but I’m shattered on the ground
I scream at myself, from the inside
I tell myself to get away, to go run and hide
But instead I do nothing,
I just feel the pain
I want to wash it away, but I can’t stop the rain
A downpour of darkness falls on me now
I want to be rid of it, but how?
I finally get myself to the bathroom,
But he’s waiting outside,
And I’m just prolonging my doom.
I accept my fate, step out as I dare
Except I do not find him standing there
I creep down the stairs, feeling so small
He plays games at the table,
As if he’s done nothing at all.
A few years pass by, the torture continues
I tell my Mom and Dad,
And he’s taken to a different venue.
Yet it doesn’t get better, as I thought it would
I cannot move on, even though I should
The pain courses through me,
Worse every minute…
When I finally dream, there he is in it.
So, I turn to myself, the knife cutting deep
Yes, this is what I do when I cannot sleep.
I no longer want to be on this earth
The pain is too much, I no longer have worth.
My mother reads words that I’ve bled on a page..
When she finds me and stops me, I go into a rage
Why can’t she understand that I’m not meant to be?
That this place would be far better off without me?
They send me away, to a place unknown
But over the course of ten days, it would become a second home
It would become a haven for this broken girl, and she would gain a new perspective on her broken world.
I’m finally released, and I feel better now
It’s not really gone, but it’s faded somehow.
I still get the dreams, the flashbacks won’t quit,
But I’m helping others before I know it.
I was able to find you, able to help you out,
By sharing your pain, by traveling the same route
You are beautiful to me, in every light,
There is nothing more perfect in my sight.
Strength can waver at times,
Courage may cease to stand,
But whenever that happens, I’ll offer my hand
I’ll always be there, whenever you fall,
To cry with you and say, “We’ve been through it all.”
But I wouldn’t change it, not now, not ever
For it brought us to each other, brought us together.
We may be Broken, you and me
But we are Broken so Beautifully.
Poetry
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What… Wait… No… Is that a tear on my cheek? Oh my goodness I’m feeling things.
This was Great!
I don’t know if this character resonates with you in anyway, but I just want to say that I am proud of your ability to conquer your demons. As for your writing I enjoy the rhyming and the flow of the piece. I just love the message of the poem, even though it’s eerie it has a way of uplifting spirits.
So bravo!
Thank you so much. Everything you said means so much?
This piece is so powerful, and I think that just through this writing you will be able to help others by letting them know that there is hope, and by being so vulnerable. Your work shows that sometimes we just need help from others.
That’s exactly what this poem is supposed to do. Thank you for your comment?