The feeling inside
so dark and alone
I wish i had died
those many years ago
every single holiday
every last one
i hate them all
they’re lonely and no fun
i lost my beautiful children
from a psycho on meth
he blew them in half
my darlings, my babies, died an early death
i never got to say goodbye
or look upon their tiny faces
i feel like this world is my hell
even though i go many places
to remember all the people ive lost
to feel like death is the only way out
damn, ive paid dearly, what a cost
i just need to know, what my life is still about
i hate the holidays
because i remember every single thing
and feel the emptiness
and all the bitterness that they bring
on every single holiday ive been alone
no where to visit, no where to call home
thats why i shouldve just died
those many years ago
Poetry
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So sorry for your loss of both people and spirit , but if it helps any i can tell you there’s something beyond this world, and I am not saying this from a religious view ( or maybe I am ) I just do not label the experience that allows me to say this. Ironically I chose to send ( post) that here as my introduction ,, which I thought was a weird choice to use as the writing is unweildingly long as the title acknowledges. ‘ my apologies for length but it’s all true and took me forever to write it so….” So maybe this was the reason I chose to post it – as my introduction ! Hi , I’m K.W.