I had the best dream. It makes me blush.
It is so hard being away from you.
Your memory is insatiable.
It rarely leaves me.
Kinda like you, I guess.
I am trying to learn and change as fast as I can.
Most times, I learn stuff and I want to talk to you about it.
No one else will do.
I am terribly lost and finally found all at once.
Sometimes, I wonder if this is how everyone feels around you. But I dont want to know if it is. I dont mind, but I dont want to know.
I just know I want more. Our future keeps taking shape in my mind, ever closer while still so far away.
Starve a fever, I know, but I cant turn away from what I see and feel when you speak or sing or touch or enter my orbit in any way. I may black out, or run, or act foolish, but I cannot turn away.
Anything you want, anything you need, I’m your girl. But for tonight, I stare at the ceiling and pretend it is a starless night outside where we lie together unafraid of the abyss and how it stares.